February 2010
I still don't know, but fine...
So, yesterday was his parent’s Anniversary and it was just not him that I miss terribly, I miss his wonderful family too. A LOT.
So, I called to say “HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TITO & TITA! :D” It was his dad who answered the fone. It was so nice hearing from them again :)) It’s been awhile since I talked to them and I really missed the family that I consider my family here in...
I don't know. :\
So, I went to church today and I find it funny that I freak out so much having the thought that I might see him there. I don’t know what to do or how to react, I really tried my best to hide myself in the crowd. I was so scared to look around, that I might see him and I don’t know if I’m ready to look at him again. I do miss him, A LOT. More than anyone could imagine, but I...
January 2010
Day 5
I didn’t expect that the results will come that fast! :D
Maybe because we’re both willing and I realized something…
That I was just so freaking stubborn that’s why I never get to fix anything between us. Well, we’re both stubborn, and now that I or we put our prides aside, things are actually going pretty good :)
I know my father now. He’s so like a little...
"Every girl has that one boy in her life, who...
I miss it all. :\
“I love you”
Day 3 & 4
didn’t go so well…
‘cuz yesterday it says on my journal to “Fix his stuff” & I cant find anything that I could fix. So, nothing significant really happened lol.
then today it says that “be sweet to him. (plastik! lols)”
& I don’t know how am I going to do that…… >.> hopefully this day won’t end like how yesterday...
Is it practical to pay $50 to send my poster to a...
& it’s Disney………….. :((
lols
Pyootchur.
So, I’m thinking of what I am going to take.
I want to do Arts so bad, but lets be practical about things, there is no money in there so I am thinking of something else and here are some of my choices. lols idk, I just wanna put them in here hehe… I really need to plan my future baby!!
Majors
Physical Therapy
Bachelor of Science in Nursing
Child Development (???)
Careers
...
BLEH
I want to say “feel better” or any simple things that shows that I care…
but, I’m trying my very best to control myself.
And, I don’t know if what I am doing is right…
lol………….
“Day 2: Serve him like a king day. ;P”
This morning I woke up with some realizations.
Realizations that I really need.
Answers that I’ve been seeking a lot.
I’m almost there understanding what is happening. I’m almost there knowing how should I feel and what should I do.
I think, things are almost clear in my head now…
Thank You Lord for this morning :)
Sorry, Wrong Number ;P lols
So I called the wrong number, then I don’t want to embarass myself ‘cuz I’ve been dialing his number for like 10 times already since last week. So I changed the tone of my voice and changed my name and I can’t believe he actually really have a friend named Michael, that I have to talk to him for few mins haha
“Day 1: Hug Day.”
Fireproofing List.
So, after watching fireproof I feel inspired fixing all of my relationships. And I’ve been told that I should start with my household before anything else. My Dad and I’s relationship isn’t that nice and it’s been broken ever since.
So, I made a 24 day list of things that I’m going to do to restore or have a real father-daughter relationship with my father....
“When you have to let him go, even if you love him so much more than what this...”
– Anonymous (via thatslove)
“When he stops by just to say hello, cause you’re not allowed out tonight. When...”
– Anonymous (via thatslove)
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“Fine………….”
“BWISET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HINDI KO ALAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
BWISET!!!
Kuha ko na!! Oo na nga eh!! Lulubayan ka na!!!
EWAN KO!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ang gulo mo!!!!!!!!!!!
Tama ng pagiging martir, AALIS NA KO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hindi na ko lalapit!!!! BAHALA KA NA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FEEL SO PATHETIC!!!
So ano?! Iniicip mo cguro ginagamit kita o kea I’m taking advantage of the situation!?
Sinabi mo sana na hindi na lang at ng hindi ako nagmumukhang tanga na parang naghahabol sayo!? Parang lahat ba dapat pabor sayo?! Nakakapnrindi!!
Wala ka naman sigurong pakielam kung magalburuto ako ngaun o ano eh!
Para akong tanga alam mo ba yon!?
Pinipilit kitang intindihin alam mo yon! Pero sana...
I find it so weird talking to my ex from japan on oovoo…
I feel like oovoo is only for him.
It’s like, that other screen is supposed to be him, not my ex from billion years ago.
And he’s all like saying that he misses me and all that junk, I don’t know every move he make reminds me of him.
I’m so used to oovoo with him, and it’s just totally weird talking to...
Here we go again!
>:\
“OH FORGET IT!!!”
“PATHETIC!!!!!”
He’s talking to me again…
I think he’s ok now… :)
So…
Are we good now…………?
